I am doing it with Devin's SWE-2 Promo.

Should I also try using Codex?

The clarity on what I actually want to research is still quite rough.

- What if we study what people are thinking at the cellular level? By doing so, maybe we can identify the reasons why billions of people in the world have different thoughts.

- Can science study things like why objects move, why environments are formed, and why things exist there? Could these have been ordained by God? Can we explore this through science?

- To be recognized by the world's top researchers.

These kinds of thoughts are coming up.

In the past, I saw a certain direction for myself (going to a top university in the world; my motivation for this was wrong before, but it is probably right now). However, I fell into self-loathing, fled, engaged in self-improvement, and have now returned because it became necessary again.

When I fled, I did not think about the fact that I would come back again.

I really hate myself, but should I grovel to the administrative work believing that the other party did not read that deeply into it, or should I properly explain everything?

However, I also feel like at the time I said I wanted to do this by deceiving people.

On top of that, my professor unfollowed me on social media after seeing my incomprehensible behavior (expressing strange thoughts or posting rage bait while being wild about making money).

What should I do?

While I think explaining everything would be best, there is naturally a risk to that (they might get furious and refuse to give me a recommendation).

Time flies, and I might be leaning toward wasting it.

I am constantly spinning thoughts in my head, focusing solely on making money within them, getting bored, and ultimately aiming to create things with a philosophy behind them, though my production speed is not fast either.

Is it because I am trying to stay comfortable that I am failing?

I feel like my intellectual stamina is declining. (Or perhaps they didn't have one)

Before, I used to think, "Even wasted time inspires my thoughts," but now, although the debate on that topic is far from over, I have come to want to avoid wasted time.

Right now, I want to study things like science and history, and engage with the cutting edge of humanity.

Although I am writing this in a rambling manner, I am currently creating:

- Daily Cutting-Edge

and

- My Life

Daily Cutting-Edge is a highly reliable news system where you can comprehensively, in real time, and in an easy-to-understand way read primary information at the cutting edge of humanity, and it was built based on my own theory regarding human information consumption.

It will be completed soon at nikkansaisentan.com.

I started making this in late June, so it has taken a long time, and I constantly feel anxious.

Can anyone make this? Is there an easier way to build it? Let us launch it quickly. Is it better to tear down what I have spent so much time on? What is the correct way to build it?

I have been tormented by these kinds of questions all this time.

I want to finish it and get feedback from people.

I also sometimes think that maybe having an extremely talented team would actually be better.

My Life is A documentation tool for you, your friends, and your AI agents.

It will become a hub for thoughts.

In the future, looking at this will make my thoughts understandable.

I have not even started building it in earnest yet.

I also have financial worries, and I really do not want to deal with logistics like tax payments and refunds, so I want to build something grand quickly enough that those problems become rounding errors.

I am thinking of going out into the world

I probably want to fully understand the human brain. Research, that is.

Or maybe starting a company in social infrastructure. The probability of that is low, though.

In the case of research, this goal must be pursued with extremely talented people.

Therefore, just like the peers in Harvard's Math 55, I feel I need to place myself in an extremely talented environment and find companions, so I am considering enrolling in a university.

However, given the current season, time is running short. Moving quickly is also an option.

Realizing this at this time of year was quite late.

Maybe I will go to the philosophy class in UCL's UPC this year, or maybe I will go to Harvard, MIT, Stanford, or UC Berkeley this year or next year. Maybe via community college... though that might take time, so I want to avoid it.

I need to work hard on the TOEFL and SAT, figure out how to explain my gap year (maybe record videos? I do not have a boss, so persuade someone as a mentor? Persuade Ken Suzuki? I was not close with anyone during my first year, so my mentor would probably be someone like Mr. Furuno, but that might be particularly difficult, or if Kei is okay, then Kei? What should I really do, it is troubling me. Ah, it seems I could ask Mr. Katsumata. Get recommendation letters (is it hard to get them from university professors? Would Professor Miyata be okay? But did I fail to reply to his last message? Did I ghost him? If I ghosted him, should I do a deep bow of apology...? Or ask the people I wrote above? But this is for the academic part, right...? Deep bow to GLE???).

How should I put it, before recently, I feel like I was doing everything half-heartedly. For extracurricular activities to write on university applications, I can casually write about winning the Minister of Education, Culture, Sports, Science and Technology Award or doing internships, but while the award is fine, I might not be able to get in touch with superiors at internship places or professors because I ghosted them. I can write about them if that is okay, though.

Well, and above all, before the university applications, should I get Daily Cutting-Edge and My Life on track and do something interesting related to My Life?

A deep bow, huh...

I still feel that my own movements are slow.

Will our generation be the last one that still has to execute?

Will there come a time, maybe just a few decades from now, when the only thing humans need to do is think?

I want Effective Accelerationism to keep moving forward as it is.

But I also believe that humanity needs to practice understanding the raw, human kind much more. Only humans can truly understand and act on that understanding, and that ability will become even more important from here on out.

That’s why I’m building Mind.

I guess I shouldn’t stay in an environment where I don’t even feel like learning

Or maybe the message is that there’s nothing left for me to learn, so I should just stop learning altogether and build my own religion now.

But I still believe there’s more I can learn and I think I can grow my religion in parallel anyway.

Let’s generate progress, produce tangible outcomes, and dedicate ourselves to making humanity better.

Recently, I’ve been working on several things: ryuzo.me/ryuzo

• Calm Mind
  A side project. Many young people seem to lose their drive by giving in to sexual desire. Let’s keep our ambition. Aiming for revenue.

• My Life
  Part of Kokoro Research. I want people to think more deeply about their lives, record them, and preserve them. Aiming for both dreams and revenue.

• Homeless Founders
  A side project. By connecting great founders and hacker houses, I want to energize the founder community. Aiming for influence.

• Social Media
  A side project. Aiming for influence.

All of these require marketing and development.

I’m also strengthening the websites I’ve already built (kokoro.wiki, ryuzo.support, deeepthink.com).

At this stage, fully monetizing the websites I’ve built carries huge meaning. Steady revenue allows me to start something much bigger.

Revenue, dreams, and influence. Sometimes, they can be achieved together.

By succeeding with these projects, I’ll gain the experience of achievement.

And then, with Kokoro Research, I’ll accomplish something truly big.

I went to San Francisco.
Just for a month, for now. Once I solve the tangled visa knot, I’ll return. (It’s a headache)

I left high school.
To build.

I’ve shifted my focus from Yobou to Kokoro Research.
To understand the inner world of human beings. To gather data. To inquire deeply.

In tiny steps, minute, imperceptible steps. I’ve grown.
This is just the beginning.

Bear witness to a moment in history.

Recently, I have learned.

And I have learned that learning itself can be meaningless.

Only execution matters.

Still, as a safeguard, I take notes on what I learn, and sometimes share or preserve them through tweets.

My personal notes go deeper than my tweets — tweets are often just fleeting insights.

Those who rise to true greatness keep their eyes on the future and live each day with deliberate excellence.